Not All Who Wander Are Lost........... I've seen this saying on shirts, hats, wall hangings, and several other things since we've moved. It dawned on me today, as I was doing my Bible study, that this is where I am right now.
I've felt off kilter and outta sorts trying to find my "new place" since we've moved. But I've NOT felt lost! I know the Lord sent us here for a reason and with purpose. For that I am truly grateful.
Honestly, driving, I can get us lost in a New York minute!!! I HATE the feeling of being lost!!
My sister and I have been talking about what I am going to be doing now. I need to find a hobby or something I like to do. (we did join the gym yesterday!!!)
I have one of those amazing sisters that what ever she puts her mind to, she can do it and do it well! She can cook, sew, craft, she's patient, a WONDERFUL wife and Mom, loves the Lord, and just one of the kindest, gentlest, most generous people you will EVER meet!!! I am NOT most of those things!!! Since we live sooooo close I hope she rubs off on me in MANY MANY areas!!!! :)
Our conversation reminded me I am wandering. I don't even know what I like! Becoming an empty nester has made me realize that I found most of my identity in what I did for my family. It's what I did for 21 years! How in thunder do I turn that tide? Don't get me wrong I enjoyed every single second of it. I've said it before, I was not a perfect Mom but it was an area I didn't feel like a failure in! I have SUPER great kids and that's not because of me and Michael but the sweetness of the Lord!! With that being said I think I did myself a disservice by not pursuing any of my interests for all of those years. One thing Elizabeth asked me yesterday that honestly took my breath was, "what did you do while you were in Denton?". Ohhhh sheesh........... deer in a headlight look I'm sure. Well I cleaned and taught Bible studies and tutored my 2 Muffins. Is that all I did??? Yep pretty much.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to teach and write and read but I really want to expand my horizons in this new season! So 2 areas I am going to pursue are cooking (I mean like Top Chef cooking hahaha) and maybe being a travel agent! And if those don't work out I think I'll start a new reality show called The Real Housewives of Amherst! HHHHMMMM I REALLY hope the cooking and traveling things work out because I don't love wine or drama that much!!! :)
It's amazing to me that when you decide to go in a direction and pray about it, there's a peace that accompanies it! I have an excitement today that I am going to find a new interest. So here we go........................................................................
Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness concerning all acts of initiative and creation. There is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans; that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen events, meetings and material assistance which no one could have dreamed would have come their way. I have learned a deep respect for one of Goethe's couplets: “Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now!”
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